When some of your friends die, you will be sad, of course. But not that much. He might be poser and drama queen but it's not possible to play this. /I don't believe he's a poser... um.. maybe ... little *blush*/.. he was about 3 years in tears! He can't play drums!
I probably live in a "fantasy world" but I really believe he loved him...and he still does...
Well, I think the point which was sickening Yoshiki the most in this situation was rather history repeating itself. Imagine you're a little boy and your father dies in at a certain age and you have HUGE problems to get over the loss (due to your own age, sensibility and so on) - and then YEARS later one of your close friends dies at the same age.... and obviously by the same cause(=commiting suicide).
Seriously, I can understand that this can throw you back to the first traumatic experience and make you get ideas, if life has an evil plan to psyche you out. If I was in his place, I'd be mourning very long too, I guess. (Maybe not as long as Yoshiki, but who knows..?)
Above all I don't get the point whose business it is, if he's gay or not, if he had relationships with bandmembers or not. Not saying, no one is allowed to fantasize about it, but isn't that enough already?
As long as he doesn't say things like "I was in love with [insert band member of your choice]" - which won't happen anyway - you can't say you're sure.
And it shouldn't be a point to talk about that frequently anyway in my opinion. If I was a star, I'd feel pretty weird, if half of my fans keep on discussing for eternity with whom I am/was sharing my bed rather than talking about my music and my videos and my ass so on. As for the topic itself here in the thread - I also don't think he necessarily needs to have those experiences to write love songs like those. As well as I don't think that he necessarily has to have experience for writing songs full of blood-splatter violence. I think often it's rather about metaphors...
Oh... of course it's just all my opinion.
Cannot know what's truth or not either of course.