I haven’t been able to post for a long time, but I finally finished it.
FYI, this documentary focuses on hide’s music life rather than his death.
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(01:28:40~ The end)
caption : その先に見据えていた未来 (The future spread in front of him)
narrator : One night, only me and Hide drank without other people for the first time. Growth of younger brother. It was the time to achieve recognition as the aide to Hide and to share the plan for the future.
Hiroshi : Hide said “Be my spokesperson so you can speak equally to me”. I was surprised when I heard that.
Enatu Yojo (Security) : Hide would have kept it in his mind. I speculate that he had a harsh whip on Hiroshi because he wanted his brother to be his spokesperson someday.
Hiroshi : Zilch had been trying to do overseas activities since then, hide with Spread Beaver had also been on the rise. “We are going to be very busy because I am aiming for overseas activities”. He said that he couldn’t fight unless he had the carefully selected staff. Until then, Hide was the president and the artist, but from then on he decided to quit the president job and concentrate on the artist job, namely hide’s works. He didn’t ask me to be the president, but said “Stand in front of people as my spokesperson”.
narrator : Artist and manager, older brother and younger brother. The person he can show his bare face. “Be my spokesperson”
caption : 俺の代弁者になってくれ (Be my spokesperson)
narrator : Hide almost reached the future he always had dreamed of.
caption : May 13th, 1998. release
narrator : “Pink Spider” was released following “Rocket Dive”. The lyrics have storytelling.
Hide : The “Pink Spider” means a spider that caresses the delusion. Web spinned by spiders is “web” in English. The web is the best way for us to gain information. The internet is an example. That’s how the spider that spewed the web to collect information should live only in the web that he created. The spider who doesn’t know other world is deluding himself that the web he spinned is the source of information. It is a story of a man who is trapped in a delusion and doesn’t know outside. At last, the spider longs for clouds and flies to another world called sky. He admires the clouds and ascends to the sky. In fact, clouds are only a component of the sky. After all, the spider ends up becoming just a part of the sky.
(( In japanese, spider[クモ : kumo] and cloud[雲 : kumo] are homonyms. It’s interesting that kumo(spider) admires kumo(cloud) and becomes kumo[cloud] ))
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : I asked him, “Did you borrow the lyrics from a tale? If not, is there a model of the lyrics?” He didn’t answer. It seemed that he didn’t want to answer, so I tried to change the topic. Then, about 5 seconds later, he said “It’s my story”.
Hide : My new single “Pink Spider” that is scheduled to be released on May 23th.
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Hide : [♪Pink Spider] You put a thread of lies on all sides. You believed your little world was the whole world. You hurt everyone that comes near you. You thought the sky would be a square. “This is all... Everything is like this anyway, isn’t it?” You said that and that’s a lie. Because your loud appearance looked lonely, a bird of paradise talked to you strangely. “Eat butterfly’s wings and come over, to paradise” “Up there, you may do as you please”. (Pink Spider) “I want to go” (Pink Spider) “I want wings”. You ignore the desperate plea of the captured butterfly and are just staring at the sky. “It is not that I hurt you because I hate you. It is just because I have no wings and the sky is too high”
(narration) “Use my wings, Spider. You don’t know the painfulness of eternal flying as of now. But someday, you’ll realize that you’ve been flying only in someone’s hands, and you have called it freedom”
Can’t fly well with the borrowed wings, falling headlong, (Pink Spider) “It’s over now” (Pink Spider) “Even though I can see the sky” (Pink Spider) “It is a failure” (Pink Spider) “I wish I had wings...”
Beyond the barely visible sky, birds are heading south “Let’s fly again, cutting these threads off, with my own jet engine, when that cloud passes by...”
Pink Spider, the sky is calling me, Pink Spider, Pink Spider
A peach colored cloud (as stated above, cloud can also be interpreted as a spider) flows through the sky... ♪
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narrator : Hide came back from LA where he stayed for a long time for promotion. That night, he finished the recording of a TV show and took part in a wrap-up party as always. The mood was heightening with his colleagues who have met in a long time. That night, he talked about the future of “hide with Spread Beaver”. Anecdotes about TV appearance and performance, schedule of tour, things to do as a band, thought about members... “I wanna live as a band member. I wanna keep going with my band”
Yoshiki : I thought someone tried to fool me. So I decided to come back to Japan. I couldn’t believe it. I thought there might be a conspiracy. I hoped it would be a conspiracy.
caption :
1998年5月2日 頸椎牽引を泥酔時に行なったための突然の事故
(May 2, 1998, Sudden accident by doing cervical vertebra traction treatment during drunkenness)
narrator : It was an accident at home.
Hiroshi : After driving him home that day, why didn’t I ever think of going up to his place? The situation would have changed if I did it. On the day of the funeral, I left the funeral hall holding a portrait of the deceased and people were rushing in. I told them repeatedly “I’m sorry, I’m sorry”.
caption : 東京 築地本願寺 (Tokyo, Tsukiji Honganji)
Hiroshi : I told him “We can’t see anymore. This is the last time”. I came out of the funeral hall holding a portrait of him, and the voice of people from everywhere sounded like scream. Compared to their screaming and crying, I thought the portrait was too light.
Hide : [♪Flame] Dear my sun, should I know how low&low? Dear my moon, should I know how low&low? Dear my stars, if you hear the stars’ lamentation. Like a wind, it’s a small sound. Sadness will spread his arms and hug your shoulders. He will wrap you with the gently shaking dance. It’s the flame of sadness. Dear my mind, no matter what misfortunes, you need to say hello to them. Dear my hurts, Let’s get rid of the heavy stuff (like a wind) that you are always carrying. If it’s going to be forgotten by getting soaked in the night breeze, widen your stride.
narrator : Even though there wasn’t hide, the third album was completed. The person who succeeded Hide was Hide’s right-hand man, I.N.A.
I.N.A : I wanted to complete the album because I saw the people who gathered in Tsukiji. (crying) Excuse me. Suddenly I recall the memory. (wiping tears) Sorry. I wanted to deliver hide’s songs to the people somehow. I will never forget the scene forever.
Hiroshi : I was about to complete the album “Ja, Zoo” on my responsibility. I can’t make music, so I asked I.N.A to complete the album in order to deliver it to people. I wanted to help people who have cut themselves off from the world and those who have been unable to hear Hide’s music since his death.
narrator : The way to completion of “Ja, Zoo”
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : We had to complete the unfinished album. Because that’s what hide left.
I.N.A : There were songs in draft while there were the finished. Among them, only the recorded songs could be completed.
narrator : Many people voiced their approval or disapproval on the news that “Ja, Zoo” would be completed without hide. It was a very hard work both physically and mentally. Until now, hide has been making a decision. But from now on, I.N.A is responsible for everything.
I.N.A : The hardest part was to make a decision. Because the person to decide has disappeared. The recording began just a week after the funeral. I was mentally really messed up.
caption : I.N.Aの才能を, すべて俺のためだけにそそいでくれ (Use all I.N.A’s talent only for me)
narrator : A week before the album release, hide’s colleagues started a live tour of 12 locations around the country.
caption : October 22, 1998. Yokosuka Arts Theater
hide with Spread Beaver TOUR appear !! “1998 TRIBAL Ja,Zoo”
narrator : The beginning was Yokosuka, the root and shrine of hide. But there were a lot of conflicts between fans, staffs and members about the performance.
I.N.A : What would hide want to do? Wouldn’t he want to play on his tour? Someone said, “Let’s make it happen”.
CHIROLYN (hide with Spread Beaver) : “Let’s tour. We have to do it”. But no one was able to start.
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : The members and staffs were people who were with hide when he was alive. When we gathered, I felt as if the air sank to the ground. Honestly it was extremely painful.
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : There is no case that you go on tour without hero. We couldn’t expect what would happen. We didn’t figure out what to do even though we agonized over it for a long time. But we concluded that it’s better to do than not.
Kiyoshi (hide with Spread Beaver) : Hide was gone that way. But we didn’t think like “It’s over. Dismiss!”.
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : We concluded that it is better to go on tour both for hide and for the fans.
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : Unlike heretofore, hide can’t guide direction anymore. Therefore we wondered that who should play hide's role? I.N.A had to do it. Who would do it if it were not I.N.A? Who else? He had been with hide, so we thought it would work well.
Hiroshi : It was a “Ja, Zoo” tour without hide, so I had to ask a lot of things to I.N.A. But I.N.A said he couldn’t do everything because he was not hide.
I.N.A : So I worried about what I should do.
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : We were so nervous until we started. How should we do?
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : Joe said we were the ones that hide chose, so let’s play as a band. That was a kind of motive.
Hide : [♪Rocket Dive] High-speeding you are a moment’s spark. Come on! Space age baby rocket dive. Spread your wings and you fly. Adios to yesterday I just waited♪
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : As soon as the live started, everyone there was crying. We cried and all the audience cried too. Everyone cried sadly. Is there such a concert?
CHIROLYN (hide with Spread Beaver) : Stress was beyond belief. The relationship between the members became strange. The staff also seemed to be out of their mind.
Kiyoshi (hide with Spread Beaver) : On second thought, it was a little reckless. But I think it was good to do. We started in order to finish it but it does not end. It’s not over yet. We’re still on that extension.
Hiroshi : From the beginning of the last live day for “Ja, Zoo”, I kept apologizing to the audience. I was grateful to those who came, but I was much more sorry for the audience.
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : As the tour went go, the audience enjoyed it. Thanks to that, the members were also healed. If the tour went on like the first day, members’ hearts would have broken. In hindsight, we tried not to distinguish between those who were fans from the old times and the general audience who came to the concert. If we split the two, we had to accept hide’s death.
I.N.A : I was being distressed from start to finish. But it was meaningful that we laughed, even though the laughter was against our will.
narrator : They thought about the future, not the memorial service.
hide : [♪Hurry Go Round] The crazy season is overflowing endlessly. ♪
caption : Released on November 21, 1998. The 3rd album “Ja, Zoo”
narrator : Completion of “Ja, Zoo” full of agony and conflict.
hide : [♪Hurry Go Round] The crazy season is overflowing endlessly. When the leaves of the ivy widely spread their roots, the scenery seen in the eyes passes away without sound ♪
I.N.A : What I want to know and listen to as now is “Ja, Zoo” that I made with hide. I really want to listen to it.
hide : [♪Hurry Go Round] I don’t need to be saddened by the kicking of memory, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy ♪
I.N.A : I still think that it’s good enough. At that time, it was enough and it still is.
hide : [♪Hurry Go Round] There is no way to figure out, only the clarity went out yesterday ♪
Kiyoshi (hide with Spread Beaver) : We can’t change the fact that hide passed away. I think finding out how we should live after that is the homework left for us. I am not sure if I could continue to be a musician unless I met hide at that time. I lived a really good time with him.
Takahashi Emi (Stylist) : I really appreciate him for training me this much. I came up with him doing everything in my power for fear of being left behind him.
J (Luna Sea) : Honestly, I still do not believe hide has passed away. I feel as if he’s here forever, and will say “Let’s do well” again.
Tetsu : He showed a lot of fun things. He showed wonderful things as well as fun things. It was love. He would have been able to act if it was only on stage. But he was the same offstage.
Kadono Hasashi (RED SHOES/Rally owner) : The people around hide, the members, the staffs and everyone who was connected by hide all had the same mind. The bond as colleagues became stronger.
Hiroshi : If hide was alive and if I had grown even more, we would have dared to jump into the world stage. Hide was preparing to advance into the world. I’m going to live life to the full. I will move on carrying hide’s name on my shoulders, carrying him on my back.
PATA : He will continue to play the guitar vigorously. He will form a band again in the other world. He will. Ah, I talked about the other world.
hide : [♪Hurry Go Round] Let’s meet in spring. ♪
caption : また春に會いましょう (Let’s meet again in the spring)
narrator : 17 years have passed since the day. There are always flowers sent by fans in front of his tombstone. 50,000 fans attended the farewell ceremony. It was the funeral that was attended by the greatest number of people in Japan's postwar history.
caption : 東京 築地本願寺 (Tokyo, Tsukiji Honganji)
narrator : Tsukiji temple “Honganji” where the funeral ceremony was held. One side of the main hall is filled with hearts toward hide. People’s minds have reached from not only Japan but all over the world.
Yoshiki : Thanks to hide, I can be as I am now. I try to let him hear the voice of fans no matter which venue I go to. Sometimes I speak aloud “Please let hide listen to your voices”. I try to spread the greatness of hide to the world. I think that’s the role given to me.
caption : December 10, 2014
narrator : The 3rd album “Ja, Zoo” is still going on. On December 10, 2014, “Co Gal” was released in a period of 16 years. This song was supposed to be on “Ja, Zoo”.
hide : [♪Co Gal] As talking the prepared words in a shy pose, let’s go with the shaking breast fixed. Scattering the winds of the dark world with a rapid jet engine ♪
caption : 当時、hideが残したデモ音源にはラララ~でメロディを歌ったものしか存在しなかった為、再現不可能と思われていた。(At that time, the demo tape left by hide was considered to be impossible to reproduce because only humming remained)
時を経てYAMAHAが開発したボーカロイド歌声合成技術を元に (Over time, based on vocaloid which is a voice synthesis technology developed by YAMAHA)
I.N.Aの挑戦が始まった。。。(I.N.A’s challenge has begun) narrator : I.N.A collected hide’s voice for four months.
caption : “hideが残した子ギャルの歌詞 (Lyrics of Go Gal left by hide)”
caption : hideの全ての曲のボーカルトラックの中から、1音1音の声を拾い組み合わせていった。それは困難かつ孤独な作業だった。(I picked up every single voice out of the vocal tracks of all hide’s songs and combined it. It was very difficult and lonely work) I.N.A : When I make hide’s music, I feel like I’m with him. I just want to convey it to people who like hide.
hide : [♪Co Gal] I don’t mean it. Until the day it collapses, I’ll fuck you and jelly. Even if everything is disappeared, let’s keep hugging ♪
caption : hide愛用のGuitar (Hide’s favorite guitar)
caption : MASATO (defspiral / guitar)
caption : Joe (hide with Spread Beaver / drums)
narrator : Co Gal was completed with a great restoration technology. “Ja, Zoo” was completed after a long time. But didn’t he have an empty heart when his work with hide was over?
I.N.A : The important thing is not changing. The work with hide is the same. There is no big difference between now and the days when hide was alive.
narrator : “I’m still with hide”. The song was completed as an extension of that thought.
hide : [♪Co Gal] The tragedy in your eyes is like watching a video. ♪
narrator : Completion of “Co Gal”
hide : [♪Co Gal] I give a kiss to the part of you where there is no love. I give a kick to your tomorrow without a dream. ♪
narrator : I want to keep delivering hide’s music, beyond generations.
caption : 崩れ落ちる 日まで (Until the day it collapses)
2人 焼けおちるまで (Until two of us burn down)
最後の カウントは (The last count is)
hide : [♪Co Gal] Until the day it collapses, until two of us burn down, the last count is ♪
narrator : Hide’s wings that were called spoiled still keep flapping.
caption : JUNK STORY
● It’s an end credits from here.
caption : hide
hide : I haven’t played enough yet!
caption : 松本秀人 (Matsumoto Hideto)
HIDE
hide : [♪Junk Story] There are so many things I want to see. The beautiful scenery I have seen before. ♪
Yoshiki : I’ve been to Disneyland with him. Both of us were very noticeable. Hide said “We are more eye-catching than Mickey Mouse”. Even though it’s not so meaningful. Aren’t you going to make the second episode of “Junk Story”? (laughs)
hide : [♪Junk Story] Sid Vicious dances at 25 o’clock. The black discs turning round and round always show dreams. The lame guitar sound ♪
PATA : Is it really okay for this kind of talk to spread? (laughs)
hide : Bang! Bang!
Joe (hide with Spread Beaver) : Everyone was naked. “We can’t go outside naked!” (laughs)
Kiyoshi (hide with Spread Beaver) : I heard that the last song’s title he left was “Go Gal”. What the hell is he thinking? (laughs)
hide : If you are healthy, enjoy live performance. You will be healthy.
D.I.E (hide with Spread Beaver) : Haha, I made a mistake.
CHIROLYN (hide with Spread Beaver) : I thought “Are they really idiots?”
Tetsu : Hide let me listen to his 1st album and asked me to play 4 songs of them. But I had a schedule already and I couldn’t do it. There was “Tell Me” among the songs. Afterwards, when I picked a song to play with Kyo for the hide memorial album, I said I wanted to play “Tell me” even though it was too late.
Kyo : Because of that reason, I was pretty pressured.
Seiji Kimura (Zeppet Store) : His head was big and hats were not fit.
Yamada Hiroyasu (classmate) : I often went to hide’s house to hang out. Back in the day, there was something like telemarketing. Hide dialed the number and asked to deliver poop. (laughs)
SEXX GEORGE (LADIESROOM) : I wanted to give him a bashing saying “It’s too fast, bastard”. However, I received bashing 50,000 times by him. (laughs)
Miyagi Hiroshi (Hair & Make Up Artist) : Once he was on stage with “regent cut”. ((regent cut : Japanese call pompadour hairstyle “regent cut” )) He said he was embarrassed, so I turned his hair back to his original style. He said he was embarrassed because everyone looks at him.
hide : What the hell is this? (laughs)
Hiroshi : I was being beaten when I was in elementary school. I ran to the front of my house, then hide came out and mounted on the fellow and beat him. He was fighting well.
I.N.A : We got teased so much at the time of the 2nd album tour. People said it’s the mascot for brothels. ((I don’t know what I.N.A means by “the mascot during the 2nd album tour” in this sentence. Anyone knows?)) I don’t go to brothel. They teased that it’s an angel character for the nationwide prostitution business. I really wanted to stop. I begged hide not to do that because my parents was supposed to come the day. Then hide said “That’s non of my business”. (laughs) I really hated him. It’s all memories. Wouldn’t you hate him to hear that? (laughs) Please never edit this talk out.
hide : [♪Junk Story] Still visible Junk Story, inside of you Junk Story, turning around and around Junk Story, inside of me Junk Story, still visible Junk Story, inside of you Junk Story ♪
hide : Bring it on!
hide : This is hide. See you next week.
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