EDIT: To the flamer:: First of all, you do not know ANYTHING about Toshi, and I'm seriously concerned your ability to type out his name is just a nature's mistake.
Secondly, I would really recommend you checking your ideas with some mental health professional, your delusions are funny but I'd rather not see you having them in real life, which, from the tone of the posts, is quite likely, do take good take of yourself and either get more real or at least pretend you can comprehend what all of the posters here are saying.
Edit Two, agreement with Orkrist, yet I think it would be better if this ENTIRE conversation was cut off in a more visible manner.
Forever love, forever dream.
Aim for the future, or the past will eat you up alive and think you are very yummy.