Okay, something rather odd just happened.
My shrink visits me at home, 1 or 2 times a week. And today, she told me something I never heard before.
Appearantly, I've been emotionally scarred for a long time.
I didn't grow up in a normal situation; my parents divorced when I was 6 and my mom was depressive. I have no contact whatsoever with my stepdad, and the last couple of years, I haven't had a good relationship with my mom either. Ms. Shrink, Els, said that they were practically ignoring me, so I never had the real warmth of a normal family. She said this after I told her my "life story" or however you would like to call it.
So, I've been emotionally abadoned for, like, half my life, or maybe even longer.
That's why I'm terrible at making contact with others, that's why I have no father-ish person in my life.
Now Els wants to make some sort of "plan" with me, like: trying to find a foster family or something like that...
I don't know what to think of it.
At the moment, I'm just confused. I didn't know the stuff going around here wasn't normal. I know I didn't have a father-person, but I had no idea it was this bad.
But I'm quite pissed off, actually. I don't fucking need a foster family. I'd rather live on my own or something. But because I'm not 18 yet, that would be out of the question.
I have no idea why I'm posting this here, actually... I just need to tell someone. Or some people.
Sorry, I'm only posting depressing stuff lately >__> I shouldn't bother you guys with this.