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Important / Re: OMG, this new look!?
« on: August 21, 2018, 09:19:16 AM »
At first I didn't like the new look but now that I've seen it a few times I actually appreciate it. The color reminds me of tumblr which is quite convenient because my eyes are used to it. ;D I agree with importing the X emojis from Discord, they're really cool and set us apart from every other page. :)
Thanks to everyone who worked on this!

Community / Re: The Official T-Shirt Of The unofficial X Japan Forum
« on: August 21, 2018, 09:08:31 AM »
Thank you for all the nice comments. :D And I agree, we should create a separate topic for all the X fanart. :)

Community / Re: The Official T-Shirt Of The unofficial X Japan Forum
« on: August 16, 2018, 11:01:40 PM »
Hi everyone. I looove this idea. ;D

I didn't create this one specifically for the t-shirt contest (and some of you guys have already seen it on discord). But I wanted to share it again, just for fun. I know the colors are probably too much... If interested I could add the word "freaks" under the X (there's still plenty of space). I think it's really cool to see what everyone else comes up with. :)

Other Bands / Re: BABYMETAL
« on: June 26, 2018, 06:09:18 PM »
I would like to know if anyone can hear what I hear and maybe explain. ;D

So there is this video of hide's solo performance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0fftTWVhQE
I think it's part of the "On the Verge of Destruction" concert. Around 7:20 hide plays a melody that sounded very familiar to me. When I first heard it I was like: "No, wait, that is Babymetal!" To me it kinda sounds like "Megitsune": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUkzu1IJW4w (especially at the beginning and around 3:00)

Thoughts? Is this a reference to another song? Or did Babymetal use one of hide's melodies? I know that Babymetal's songs are heavily influenced by X so maybe that's the case here as well...

hide / Re: New hide documentary "Hurry Go Round"
« on: June 26, 2018, 05:41:22 PM »
I wish they'd release a version with subtitles. Does anyone know if that is going to happen?
It's a shame that there's so much material out there that is only accessible in Japanese language (a lot of interviews for example). Makes me sad... I'd even pay for someone to make subtitles. Or I'll make them myself as soon as my understanding of Japanese is good enough (in a few years ::) ).

But I love, love, love the "new" version of "Hurry Go Round". :)

Other Bands / BABYMETAL
« on: May 01, 2018, 03:56:52 PM »
Hi guys!

What do you think of Babymetal? I recently became really obsessed with their music. Tbh, I didn't get the hype at first but now I can't stop listening (I'm actually quite late to the party...as usual). I think their fusion of J-Pop and metal is genius, it's both catchy and something completely new. Apparently they've already done some world tours and regularly play at some of the biggest rock/metal festivals around the world. Their live performances are sooo amazing, please check them out if you haven't already. I would love to see them one day. :)

Plus, I've noticed that their music shares some similarities with X's songs (maybe that's why I'm so hooked lol). Their producer seems to be a huge X Japan fan and included a lot of references to X in their performances. This blog post talks about all the references: http://babymetal.net/tag/x-japan/

For example, Babymetal's song "Akatsuki" is a tribute to "Kurenai": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2372C5PJLM
I absolutely love this song. And I would love to see a collaboration of X Japan and Babymetal. Yoshiki already expressed his interest to do a collab (though I don't really see that happening any time soon ::)): https://www.jrocknews.com/2015/07/yoshiki-would-like-to-collaborate-with-babymetal-at-some-point-in-the-future.html

They're just adorable :3

hide / Re: New hide documentary "Hurry Go Round"
« on: April 30, 2018, 08:48:17 PM »
...found another photo regarding the new documentary (whoops, it's HUGE):

And apparently there's a longer trailer now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAnJHa82q40

hide / Re: hide
« on: April 30, 2018, 07:49:31 PM »
This is one of my favorites:


I missed it too. :( Would be nice to announce it at least a day earlier next time so more people get a chance to join. ;) Anyway, thanks for the idea~

Important / Re: New X-Freaks Chat
« on: April 18, 2018, 12:33:05 PM »
Thank you for creating the chatroom. I actually enjoy real-time conversations a bit more than posting on the forum. :D And I loved watching the concert with everyone. :)

hide / Re: VALENTAINE2 1998/02/11/ 03:20 (Note from hide's diary)
« on: April 07, 2018, 06:25:43 PM »
OK, let's go out to drink. We need rather alcohol than sweets all in all, don't we? You understand, teenagers?

LOL, teach them. ;D ::) I still prefer sweets tho. :P

Thank you for sharing these!

I don't even care about the album at this point. All I hope for is to see them live before it's too late.

hide / Re: Have you guys seen this?
« on: April 01, 2018, 04:52:06 PM »
I also saw it for the first time. It's great to see that hide keeps inspiring new artwork. :) This piece is really beautiful but way too expensive for me as well. Maybe they can print some posters for us poor people. ;D

Yoshiki / Re: Yoshiki's mental health
« on: March 23, 2018, 03:30:39 PM »

The jonghyun thing messed me up when it happened. I was a mess. He was failed by multiple systems. He was failed by his doctor and by the law enforcement. His sister called to have a wellness check and they arrived too late.

It seems like if people would've gotten to musicians like jonghyun or hide in a certain amount of time they'd still be here.

I hope you're better now. I also had a hard time accepting reality and felt as if I had split off into another timeline. Jonghyun's death just feels so wrong especially because it seems that it could have been prevented. As for hide, no one really knows what his intention was but I guess that no mentally stable person regularly drinks themselves to the point of oblivion. Possibly, his passing could have been prevented too. But facts are that they're gone and it doesn't matter how much we wish we could travel back in time to stop shit from happening (I sometimes wish I could ::) ). I try to keep them alive in my heart (...that sounded less cheesy in my mind).

Now back to Yoshiki. He sure is kind of messed up mentally but then again he seems to have some sort of mental strength that keeps him going. He's still around and keeps creating music, interacts with us, encourages people to never give up and wants to be a role model for that. I think we should really appreciate our favorite musicians/artists/etc while they're still walking this planet. :)

Fantext / Re: Because of You
« on: February 16, 2018, 10:17:58 PM »
I know I'm late but this is sooo good. I need to know what happens next. Please? :)

Fantext / Re: Should I share my fan-fic here?
« on: February 16, 2018, 07:00:25 PM »
Yeees, please. I'd read it. :)

General chat / Re: What will happen at a hotel run by X Japan?
« on: February 15, 2018, 10:41:31 PM »
This was a looot of fun to read. ;D

I had some more ideas:

- They smash everything before the hotel ever opens.
- Thus, the opening date is rescheduled multiple times. Probably to 20XX.
- There's a regular challenge on who breaks the record of the furtherst thrown TV out of a hotel room. Usually either hide or Yoshiki wins.
- Toshi, the chef, prepares breakfast, lunch and dinner and happily gives you recommendations regarding the menu.
- Expect to get pranked by hide. (On your last day you might get a hide plushie as a souvenir so don't be too mad.)
- Pata can help you calm down: He runs a cat café in the hotel lobby. Toshi often supports him and makes the best coffee ever.
- In case you fall sick during your stay (or are allergic to cats (like me)), nurse Yoshiki will take care of you. :P
- Heath works in the background and is secretly responsible for keeping everything together.
- Sugizo hosts a weekly movie night with all sorts of sci-fi movies. You get a 50% discount on your ticket if you show up in a Star Trek or Star Wars cosplay.

(Maybe I'll add something for Taiji if I can come up with another idea. :)) )

Toshi / Re: Pictures without glasses
« on: February 13, 2018, 09:59:11 PM »
I came across these on tumblr. :)

Yoshiki / Re: Yoshiki's mental health
« on: February 13, 2018, 10:53:24 AM »
There was this Kpop star, Jonghyun of Shinee, who killed himself last december. He went to therapy for depression, and in his suicide note he wrote the same thing Yoshiki said, that he felt like the therapist couldn't understand him. No matter how good a therapist is, sometimes it is just not possible to help.
This is off topic but you mentioned it first. ;) Jonghyun's suicide hit me really hard. I'm struggling with depression myself and felt really triggered when it happened. I'm doing much better now but I still think about him almost every day. It's such an incredible loss. And it makes me furious that he didn't get proper help. :'(

As for Yoshiki, I hope he gets the right help if he ever decides to get better. We don't know enough to tell that he doesn't have suicidal tendencies but I think he'll just keep working and will eventually die in the process. I just hope that he's happy with whatever he decides to do. Despite all his messed up life experiences he seems to have a mental strength that keeps him going. He never gives up and I'm sure he sticks to that mindset. That's truly inspiring actually. :)

Yoshiki / Re: Yoshiki's mental health
« on: February 12, 2018, 06:19:45 PM »
Tbh, I can't picture him as a real father. Not unless he learns how to take proper care of himself - and I don't see that happening any time soon. His working habits seem to be a form of self-destruction that he's totally okay with. Also, he doesn't strike me as someone who could be in a healthy long-term relationship. And love certainly isn't the cure. No partner should be given the role of a therapist.

I've been wondering if he ever had some sort of psychotherapy? I know it's something that is still frowned upon in Japanese culture but then again he lives in LA where it's commonplace that everyone has their therapist. I feel like he doesn't want to get better. It's just so sad to watch. Guess I need to switch off my empathy mode.

Yoshiki / Yoshiki's mental health
« on: February 11, 2018, 10:24:09 PM »
Hi everyone!

I had no idea how to name this thread, sorry. Has anyone seen this interview? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMN0k-POsUA

I think it's really interesting. Yoshiki talks a lot about his father in this one and how he – even after his death – impacted him throughout his life. He's been pretty open about his father's suicide in several interviews but there's a part that really hit me. When asked if he sees himself as the "father" of X Japan (around 6:00) he becomes kind of emotional and says that he's still a child. The whole concept of being a father – even just figuratively as the father of his band – seems to be extremely unsettling to him. When asked whether he wants to have children of his own, he seems to be open to the idea at first but then kind of retreats the statement by saying that his songs are his children.

I know that Yoshiki's mental health has already been discussed here but this interview was a real-opener for me. Tbh, I feel bad for him. To this day he's struggling with his father's suicide. Looking at the songs he wrote, it's clear that this event has not just been a source of extreme pain but also an inspiration for a lot of his lyrics. Going through this type of trauma, especially as a child, shapes you for life but I find it heart-wrenching to see that Yoshiki seems to feel as if it all happened yesterday. Do you think there's a chance for him to overcome this (at least partially)? Or maybe he's holding on to this pain because it's an immense driver for his creativity? Growing up like this can make you believe that your demons are part of you and abandoning them can be just as scary, especially if your identity is built around your pain and trauma.

If this topic is too personal/invasive, I'll delete it. Mental health and anything related to psychology is super interesting to me and Yoshiki's personality has always puzzled me so I'd like to read your thoughts on that. :)

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