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News / Re: News about X members activity
« on: November 20, 2020, 04:44:16 PM »
What reasons do people have to believe Yoshiki and Toshi are still feuding? Didn't he and Toshi sue the new source that released that info and shouldn't we believe the rift was fabricated or exaggerated because of that? Yoshiki did state that one of the reasons recording takes so long is because he has to be respectful of other members' schedules and family life.

Anyway, I already posted most of this on discord but I made a list of interesting tidbits from Yoshiki's members-only portion of his birthday broadcast for those of us who don't have membership.

  • Yoshiki said La Venus is a lot easier to play in G tuning for everyone (pianist, strings player) but things have to be centered around the vocalist. So when it gets shifted to the proper key it becomes much harder to play on piano and violin (this part might have been during public broadcast)
  • The Rolling Stones, Rihanna, Neko Case and Janet Jackson have all recorded at Yoshiki's studio.
  • He has an electric grand piano that acts like a synth. Yes it is as big and in the shape of a traditional grand piano. He says he has this because regular electronic keyboards hurt his hands more/more quickly than pianos do.
  • Along with recording booths in Yoshiki's studio, there is also 2 visual editing booths/rooms.
  • We all know he scores 90% of the music before it's made, but he actually makes scores (strings, drums, guitars, bass) daily like they're a daily diary. He also does this with lyrics. He'll then have a pile of lyrics and things that he'll see if he can use in anything. He pulled out a few folders full of these things to show us. One of the scores was solely dedicated to just the symbols on the drums. Another score was dedicated strictly to the velocity of a piano piece (how hard or soft you touch each note, which is not typical at all).
  • One of the folders he showed us was lyrics for Kiss The Sky and had about 50 pages worth of lyrics. Most pages had notes scribbled on them detailing different things.

Kiss the Sky Specific:
  • Yoshiki said the song is made up of about 1000 tracks. He's right. I counted 37... of the ones I could see. Says it's definitely another Art of Life and that Art of Life also took several years to record.
  • The bass line is AWESOME. It's intricate and musical and definitely an instrument within the song instead of just filler. Heath must be very happy to play it.
  • There is a twin guitar solo that is also AWESOME. Part of it reminds me of Blind Guardian.
  • Yoshiki plays some of the guitar on the song and if the part that played was his, it's very cool. It's like noise and punk, but clean so it sounds modern so it's nice to see his progression as a musician and doing something different with rock.
  • They are indeed incorporating the "woah woah woah" parts that were recorded around the world. Yoshiki said he spent "like 500 hours" listening to them all and then arranging them together. It sounded really powerful and took me back to the 90s stadium audiences because you can hear the difference between male and female voices coming together to harmonize.
  • Toshi has a difficult vocal part where he belts "we will kiss the sky" in a high register in what I'm pretty sure is detached voice so... woah. But what can we expect from X's vocalist? I really think he might be the best male singer in the world.
  • There's a heavy drop/interlude part with guitar, bass and piano that makes me want to do dangerous things :D
  • I think everyone's going to be verrrry happy with this song.

  • Numerous guests wished Yoshiki happy birthday from around the world. Baby Metal, Gackt, Inoran and Sugizo from Luna Sea, HYDE, etc.
  • Yoshiki said Inoran is the best drinker of Luna Sea
  • Sugizo said they're both in their 50s now and that he never imagined this is what 50s would be like. He appreciates their relationship and wants to see Yoshiki in Japan soon. Yoshiki said X reviving would not have been possible without Sugizo and that back during SKIN times they had talked for hours one day about their future and dreams.
  • Gackt said he hopes Yoshiki continues to see him as a dear younger brother forever and that he was very thankful that when he was going through a hard time once, Yoshiki told him to call him at any time because Yoshiki would be there for him. Yoshiki said that even though Gackt is like a younger brother, that because Yoshiki isn't always logical but Gackt knows a lot about many things, that Gackt ends up being like the bigger brother a lot of the time.
  • Something funny happened that sent the group chat into a frenzy when we all suddenly learned Yoshikitty can speak. There was a part during the stream when Yoshikitty played Happy Birthday on piano for Yoshiki, got up and then verbally wished Yoshiki Happy Birthday and gave him well wishes. Yoshiki later said that it nearly gave him a heart attack and made him forget his birthday because he never knew Yoshikitty could speak.  ;D
  • His birthday cake was in the shape of the piano and even the bench and floor were cake. He was given those red oreos as well, but they were red bean flavored instead of red velvet which makes sense for Japan. He also had cookies made to look like his Yoshiki credit card and he liked these much better than the red oreos. He took several bites of multiple credit card cookies even though they were all the same flavor.
  • I'm sure you all noticed this but Yoshiki set up gift donations. He said, "This is the first time I'm doing the super chat as a gift. I've been saying, I don't need anything but please donate to any charity you support. Everything that comes to me goes to that charity through Yoshiki Foundation America... so that's what we are doing. This is the first time so I hope everything goes well."

He also made 2 Yoshikimono masks that will be released soon (one is red and black with black silk ties and the other is purple and red with red silk ties). His photobook was released today in the same spot he and Bill Gates did an X Box release in Shibuya years ago and weighs more than 5lbs  :o. There will be a new Japanese and English Yoshiki.net website coming. In about a month Under the Sky will premier and everyone on the chat was really excited for it. I'm looking forward to it too and actually think it will be quite a spectacular extravaganza. There was no word on whether it's going to be a series or an all-in-one event but the release date near Christmas makes me think it will be the latter. I could be wrong though.

Edit: It was just reported via Consequence of Sound on Yoshiki's Twitter that Under The Sky will be a live streaming event starting at 8pm JST/6am EST on Dec 23rd. Yoshiki said they are still working on the final cut but are very excited they can finally announce this project. So yes I'm pretty sure it'll be a single film.

What's about Yoshikis LiveJournal?


What's about Yoshikis LiveJournal?


Is that...? Is that really his journal?  ???

No that is not Yoshiki's journal. ChaCha is the nickname of Gackt's guitarist ChaChamaru. It's a fan journal writing fanfiction in the style of journal entries from "Yoshiki's" perspective. I decided to archive on X Freaks the only remaining site with a copy of most if not all of his Myspace blog posts here: https://www.x-freaks.com/forum/index.php?topic=7737.0

Just in case that website gets deleted. I don't think it's tended to anymore so it'd be a shame for them to become obsolete if that one goes. Hopefully X Freaks will be around for a long time.

Yoshiki / Date Unknown, but at least Nov 21 2008 - early 2009
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:29:41 AM »
Date Unknown, but late 2008 - early 2009

i just started tweeting!

My twitter


:rotating smiley emoji:


Yoshiki / Nov 21, 2008
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:23:36 AM »
Nov 21, 2008

Mes Excuses

Je vous présente toutes mes excuses. Je suis vraiment désolé....

Je ne sais pas comment décrire mes sentiments envers nos fans,

vous qui vous êtiez réjouis à l'idée de voir les concerts de

X Japan à Paris et au japon.

Même si la decision n'était pas la mienne… J'en prends pleine responsabilité…

Et je ne le prends pas à la légère.

J'en ai encore le coeur serré. Je ne supporte pas la douleur d'àvoir brisé le coeur de nos très très cher fans, vous qui m'avez tant soutenus toutes ces années.

J'avais vraiment hâte de faire ces concerts mais notre companie de production a beaucoup de problèmes à resoudre avant que nous puissions recommencer notre tournée.

J'étais prêt à partir en tournée dans n'importe quelles conditions. Si nous avions pu être là, nous vous aurions offer le meilleur spectacle.

Parfois je déteste tout…Je déteste la vie…Je me déteste aussi…

Haissez moi…. Haissez moi encore…Mais je vous aime toujours.

Je me demande parfois si j'aurais du rouvrir cette porte qui

s'appelle "X Japan". Mais en meme temps, je ne sais pas non plus comment la fermer.

Avec Amour,



Yoshiki / Wednesday, February 20, 2008
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:23:02 AM »
Wednesday, February 20, 2008


Hi everyone!

I just finished writing the end title for the Hollywood movie I've been working on as VUK (Now I have to finish recording it!!).

And I have another deadline for an upcoming Japanese TV film (It's about the Second World War…… and it's a 5 hour film!!!!!) by the end of this month…... On top of that….. Some people may already know about it…..

But we just added another day to the X Japan Tokyo Dome shows because of the strong demand….. I think I'm very happy about it, but at the same time I don't know how I'm going to survive for these 3 days (March 28, 29, 30th).

Well, I think that all those songs may turn out to be pretty interesting, and regarding the X Japan shows….. I'll do anything to please our 150,000 dearest fans in the Tokyo Dome. But, to be honest, I'm pretty nervous….. Because of my neck problem, and wrist pain….. You know what? At this point I just have to go for it! (Please wish me luck!)

I'm still in LA, and preparing for all those things, and again I'll read all your lovely comments as soon as I find time. Also we'll make some interesting announcements soon…..!




Regarding my neck, I started going to see medical doctors, chiropractors and acupuncturists and….. Well you name it........ I'm doing everything I can to survive those 3 consecutive shows….. And the day before yesterday, one of the doctors put some kind of heated cups on my back to suck my muscles up….. That felt very weird. And now I have bruises on my back….. hmmmm looks funny! Ha ha ha…..

Also, X Japan's management asked me to link this: www.myspace.com/xjapan2008

We are hoping that some people living outside of Japan can experience X Japan's Tokyo Dome shows.

Guess what..... I just ate one of the best ICE CREAMS I've ever had, and it's low carb..... I don't think life is that bad.....

Or I should say life is fucking wonderful !!!!!!!


Yoshiki / Monday, January 28, 2008
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:22:25 AM »
Monday, January 28, 2008

I.V. X japan
Current mood: excited


I still haven't found the time to read your comments yet, but I will eventually.

Anyway, the song I wrote for the end title of "Saw IV", which I performed with my band X Japan (you know we reunited recently!), is out!!!

The song is called "I.V."….. I think you can download that song through "iTunes store" worldwide….. Isn't that cool!!!

Also we may tour outside of Japan for the first time….. I'll let you know as soon as we confirm it!

Again, thank you so much for your undying support!




You know what? Last week I went to Tokyo and did a press conference and also did an interview for "MySpace Japan".

They asked me if they could create a special X Japan 2008 page….. www.myspace.com/XJAPAN2008 Wow they did it! ..... "Thank you MySpace!"

I wonder if they can help me decorate my…… YOSHIKI page…..? ha ha ha ha….!

Ahhhh…… I still have jet lag….. I want to go home and sleep, but I have to keep recording the theme song for one of the movies that I'm working on…… I'm sleepy….. I want to go home….. mmmmmmmm

Maybe I should eat some chocolate….!!!!!


Yoshiki / Monday, January 21, 2008
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:21:50 AM »
Monday, January 21, 2008

Current mood: excited

Happy New Year!

Hope you had a great holiday.

Sorry but I've been so busy, I haven't been able to update MySpace for a long time.

Well let me get to the point…… I want to talk about X Japan….. That word "X"….. "X Japan"……I tried to forget….. I tried to leave behind.

I suffered with that name for so many years, but it finally came to a conclusion…… instead of avoiding those thoughts, I decided to face it and conquer it…… Because of you…..

You made me realize what I should do…..

So, we will perform this coming march "03/28 and 03/30" in the Tokyo Dome….. As X Japan.

I love you,



Yoshiki / Thursday, December 06, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:20:35 AM »
Thursday, December 06, 2007

It’s been a long long while !
Current mood: busy

Hi everybody !

God! I haven't updated this VUK page for a long time.

I've been recording VUK along with X Japan, S.K.I.N., and other projects.

Everything is really important for me, but VUK is my baby….. which I've been trying to give birth to…..

Well it's a very hard laboring process. But eventually the time will come.

So please don't forget Violet UK!!…… mmmm…..

I just uploaded a song called "Blue Butterfly".

This song (even though it's not the final version), became the theme song for a Film called "Catacombs"……

But my secret weapons of VUK (the songs I really like)….. I will upload them sometime in the near future!




Well, I just got back from driving. There are so many things happening around me…..

And it's very exciting, but….. I'm a little bit stressed out…..

So I put VUK and X Japan into my Ferrari, and I fucking blasted the sound as loud as can be, and drove to Malibu xxx miles an hour….. AHHH that felt good!!!

Now it's the time of day for me to practice the piano…… mmmm.....

AHHH….. HANON exercises are so boring….. Maybe…… I should skip it and play BACH tonight……

....mmmm….. maybe I should eat some chocolate cake first, and I should…..

Well I'm just procrastinating….. ha ha ha ha!


Yoshiki / Saturday, December 01, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:20:00 AM »
Saturday, December 01, 2007

It’s been awhile
Current mood: busy

Hi everyone!

I think I have a lot to tell you; including X Japan reunion, Saw IV, Repo, and…..

I've been trying to find the time to write in the Blog about my recent projects.

But….. Ah….. I wish I could have 25 hours a day….. so at least I can have an hour to read all your messages and write about my feelings…..

….. I just want to be close to you…..

Well, once again, the blog I'm about to post is one of the few I wrote in July, which might not be the latest news but I'll post it anyway.

And I REALLY REALLY want to thank you for all those messages for X Japan reunion, my B-Day, and ….. everything else....

I'm still reading some of those in between recordings.

I Love You Always.

After the S.K.I.N. show, I had some magazine interviews, and photo shoots.

I was so exhausted, but I did not want to cancel any of those appointments….. so I did them all….. well I guess some of them are fun!

I basked in the blood and played piano and ….."You think I'm weird, don't you?"

But it was a very visual rock photo shoot. I'll post some pictures later.

Some of them remind me of the early X Japan style. Some of them were Goth.

But the funny part was….. The trailer for my dressing room and the place where we shot the photos were pretty far apart.

So I had to walk back and forth, on a pretty busy street, in downtown L.A.

With scars, and clothes with a lot of blood….. People were freaking out…... and in the evening there was a car accident in between those 2 locations….. then I walked in with my body covered in blood….. police officers were staring at me….. and …................. well, I just smiled!!

Then they went back to their duties….. that was very funny. I don't know why….. for some reason my life always has been dealing with some kind of drama.

Anyway, considering the amount of blood, and everything we had to do….. our photographer, models and staff did an amazing job…… they rocked.

Thank you!




Yoshiki / Friday, August 17, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:18:48 AM »
Friday, August 17, 2007

S.K.I.N. show

OK….. I came back to L.A. from Tokyo just 2 days before the S.K.I.N. show. I had to go to my recording studio directly from LAX airport, had some meetings regarding the movie soundtrack I've been working on, and practiced the drums for the show.

The next day we had a band rehearsal at the Long Beach Arena, but before and after that I had to go to my recording studio again (with traffic, those locations are around 2 hours apart).

So I didn't have time to sleep the night before the show.

Well I guess I should say the first S.K.I.N. Live went well, considering the minimal rehearsal time we had, and the band members did very well…..

….but my head was a little blurry….. Not because I didn't sleep a few days before the show…..

I wish I could have seen everybody's face (audience) a little more….. And I should have smashed the drum set even more…ha ha ha ha ……

I don't exactly know what I'm talking about….. but….. Well….. That was the first drum performance on stage for me since X Japan's Last Live…..

I don't know why but as soon as I started playing the drums on the stage at the Long Beach, so many memories started filling my head…..

Don't get me wrong… I was very excited playing with these amazingly brilliant members, but I started feeling a little sad, and a few times tears filled my eyes and blurred my vision….. Very strange…..

I don't think I've conquered the sadness of past X Japan memories yet…..

But at the same time I felt like I found the place to live….. Besides inside of the dark recording studio.

Being on stage….. Breathing with you….. And beating the beat along with your heartbeats…..

I don't know how long I should be, and I can be….. But I found a place again ….where I belong.

I'd like to feel the sound

I'd like to feel your breath

I'd like to feel your heartbeat

I'd like to feel your scream

More and more…..

I love you,



All my respect goes to the band members of S.K.I.N., staff and FANS who supported us.

Thank you!!!


Yoshiki / Wednesday, August 08, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:18:05 AM »
Wednesday, August 08, 2007


OK…… I wrote this blog more than a month ago when I was staying in Tokyo.

I wrote it, but as soon as I finished typing, I had to start rehearsing…… and doing everything else. So I didn't have time at all.

It sounds a bit strange, but since I wrote it, I'll post it anyway.

Regarding the S.K.I.N. show and JAPAN EXPO in Paris; I'll post them separately….. Damn I spilled the water again. I must still be jetlagged AH----!


Hi everyone!

I don't know where to start. Whether it's good or bad, so many things are going on!!!

Today, maybe I'll just talk about the party after the JRock shows.

First of all, the JRock shows were very successful. Thank you so much for all your support, even to those who couldn't attend…..

To be honest, there were a lot of things to organize before the show, especially the last 3 days I barely slept…… but it was worth it, when I saw everybody smiling…. That's it, it just made me happy!!!

Well, after the night of the second show, all the tension we had through those days was released…… I mean….. Exploded!!

The night of the 26th, all the band members (MUCC, D'espairsRay, Girugamesh, Merry) who performed that day, came to my house. We were just eating and drinking…. Suddenly Yukke from MUCC asked me if he could jump into the pool….. I said "sure!"…… right after that, Tsukasa from D'espairsRay asked me if I could throw him into the pool…… I said….. Why??? Then he said that was one of his dreams…… (I thought that was a strange wish)……. I said ……. OK!!! Well…… after two Rockstars were in the pool….. I was like….. You know what …… WHY NOT!!! I jumped into the pool as well…… after I jumped….. Everyone started jumping in.

As far as I remember, it was probably around 1 or 2 A.M., and everyone jumped in with their clothes on…… I think???

We ended up drinking and swimming until 6 A.M. (I feel sorry for the neighbors because we were so loud, but that was one of the best rock & roll parties I've had in several years!!!).

These days I have a lot of things on my mind, including the issue about X-Japan's reunion. That's been driving me absolutely crazy…... if that thing happens or not….. JRock shows and the party made me realize I have a lot of fans and friends that I can share the dream with……

I'm so fortunate that I have you around…..

…… with VUK, with S.K.I.N. (actually I'm in Tokyo right now, rehearsing with the band for the show)….. and with you…..

I want to start rocking again.




Last week, I had to start producing the music for a new Hollywood movie in L.A…… (AH…… WHY NOW?!?!) Thanks to the internet and technology, I'm overseeing it here from Japan!


The day before yesterday, in the airplane on the way to Japan, I had a really weird dream….. I almost….. Well, I think I screamed!! The flight attendant came to me and said "Are you OK? ....." Then I said "THE RICE MONSTER IS TRYING TO EAT ME!!!"….. And she said……. "WHAT????" and I said……mmmm……ah……. "Never mind……ah….. Could I have a glass of Champagne and Caviar please?"

……. OH MY GOD!!!..... "I am so embarrassed"….. I've been doing a "special diet" and training, in order for me to play drums even harder….. Since then "THE RICE MONSTER" has been showing up in my dreams. Ha ha ha ha ha!!!


Yoshiki / Thursday, August 02, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:17:24 AM »
Thursday, August 02, 2007

Current mood: busy

Hi everyone,

I'm sorry but I've been really busy.
I haven't even had the time to log on.

Well…I'll be posting a new blog and some pictures really soon!!!




Yoshiki / Thursday, May 24, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:16:46 AM »
Thursday, May 24, 2007

Current mood: surprised

How are you everyone?

I just have to tell you something. ...Last night after the recording, I drove by the Wiltern Theater (LA). I saw several cool looking people camping outside the venue.

It was probably around midnight….I wondered "Who's performing tomorrow?"

I then called one of my assistants to find out the schedule of the venue….. He said "Only the JRock festival is happening this week at that venue." …… Then I said "Are you serious? Are they camping out for our concert?"…..

It was already late, but I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about them…….. So..... around 3 A.M. I drove up to the venue, and brought several coffees and hot chocolates to them…..

L.A. is still very cold at night….. Also ….. I don't know I was just very shocked because the show starts on Friday. One of the guys said he'd been camping out since Monday….. COME ON!!!!! ….. I don't know what to say, but they're extremely devoted…...I guess that's Rock 'n Roll…… but I hope they don't catch a cold…..

Maybe I should bring something warm for them….. Although I have a production meeting all night tonight…… AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I hope everything goes well for those nights, and I'll pray for everybody's health.

Love You,



Yoshiki / Thursday, April 12, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:16:10 AM »
Thursday, April 12, 2007

J rock festival

Hi everyone!

I also wanted to thank you for the comments on the last blog regarding............. X Japan.....

I still haven't figured out what to do with this matter….. but when I decide, please know that each one of you helped me with this decision, which I really appreciate!!!

OK…… let me change the subject…….

More than a year ago, some of my friends asked me if I could organize a Japanese Rock event in America……… then I said……. OK! ..... Well that's it…… We're doing it.

When I used to live in Tokyo, I organized several rock concerts….. So this time I'm doing it in Los Angeles with several partners. ….. Some small details may change, but we have 9 bands coming from Japan and will be performing at the "Wiltern Theater" in L.A. on May 25, 26th.

(The band lineup will be:alice nine., Vidoll, Duel Jewel, Kagrra, Miyavi, DéspairsRay, Merry, Girugamesh, and MUCC.

Also, at the theater, the fourth member of the band will be announced.

I'm not performing….. but I'll be there to make sure everything rocks.

Another thing….. Last week I was asked to do another soundtrack of a new Hollywood movie…… I just finished reading the sсript…… this one is really, really weird, but very interesting……. Maybe I should do it…… well my managers and attorneys started negotiating with the movie studio…… hopefully everything works out!

I love what I do….. but sometimes the pressure of the schedule is intense, and stressful, because I really care about the quality of the music, no matter what project I'm involved with.

I feel like I just opened the door a little bit, that has been closed for several years after the sad incident….. Well things start flooding into it….. I guess I'm lucky…… but I'm a little tired…..

Maybe I've been working in the studio too long…… maybe I should get out and perform!!!

……..OOPS!!! I just spilled the melted chocolate ice cream on the keyboard…… AHHHHH… (to be specific: which is chocolate ice cream made of rice which my nutritionist recommended.)…..…AHHHHHHH!!!!!
…… I'm so clumsy….. Well I should go and clean my desk…. Hope to meet you soon!!!!!



PS: regarding the Jrock festival. If you'd like to know more information, please go to J rock revolution


Yoshiki / Sunday, February 25, 2007
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:15:30 AM »
Sunday, February 25, 2007



I finally got the day off yesterday.

After the new year, I've been working and working……. I got sick, but kept recording and recording……. So I finally finished one of the projects I have been working on……. Not VUK, not yet…….

Anyway, it was a perfect day off…… I went to my studio, and interviewed several candidates for my entertainment organization, and went to dinner with several friends…… then went to see the "Dir en grey" show at the Wiltern Theater in LA.

Overall the show was great…… full of energy, and….. every time I see them perform, it makes me want to rock…… I'm doing a lot of different genres of music……. from classical to…… whatever…… but I think I really love rock. I've been playing the drums since I was 10 years old…… well, actually playing the piano since age 4 as well.

Anyways…… after the show, the entire band came to my house, and celebrated Shinya's (the drummer's) birthday party. Back then….. well, when I was producing Dir en grey, we used to hang out pretty much every day…… It was so nice to hang out with them again.

Last night we ended up drinking together until the morning,

I hope they're all OK for the show tonight.

On stage they were very charismatic, but off stage they are some of the sweetest people I know…… HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM!!!

Well, I haven't been producing bands or artists for a while…… because at one point I was producing almost 10 artists at the same time, and it completely burned me out…… But I may be starting again…… well before I do, I have to finish so many other things……

OK….. I'm still working on Violet UK……I think….. but for the first time in many years, I'm confident that some of these songs will be able to blow your minds away……

When I used to do X Japan's songs…… every time I finished recording….. I hated them….. I always felt that something was missing…… but finally with VUK…… You'll see!!!!!!!

And…… some people have questions about "THE BAND".

Yes, Sugizo from Luna Sea came here to LA several times last year, and last month Gackt came to town, and we both went to dinner….. pretty much just the two of us……

Actually that was really funny….. Gackt came to my house and ate dinner…… that was good….. Then I said to him "why don't we go out to dinner?". and he said "we just ate…..???" then I said "I wanna eat different food….." well .... we ate Japanese food at my house, and then ended up going out to a Japanese restaurant in LA…..

(We are very weird…. Ha, ha, ha, ha)…… but that was fun!

Yes, I'm so lucky to have them as friends, and also to be able to work with them professionally.

Sugizo and Gackt are such talented people, also having such an amazing vibe. Actually, they are all going to come here next month with one more person that I can't reveal yet.

OK, and X Japan…..

I'm like…….Why now? ..... Why, why, why……

To be honest….. it took years to conquer the pain and sadness….. maybe not yet, I still cannot listen to…… or watch X Japan's videos….. without tears…..

" MY OWN GODDAMN BAND" ….. I can't listen to it without crying…… HOW CAN I BE IN IT AGAIN? …… IT HURTS SO MUCH…… TO EVEN TALK ABOUT ...... X JAPAN…..

Yes, I can play the drums. I think I can play them even harder than before…… of course my injured neck and wrists hurt….. but SO WHAT!!! ….. I don't give a fuck about that kind of pain…..

But mentally….. I don't know if I can take it….. I'm not saying if I'll do it or not….. I talked to Toshi (vocalist)……. He called me almost towards the end of last year….. for the first time since we went our separate ways……….

Toshi and I..... we grew up together…........ I don't know ….. I don't know…. I don't …… know …….

Yes, there are lyrics of the song "WITHOUT YOU" ….. That, I wrote, right after Hide's death….. also, I had to do so many takes of piano recording, because of the tears falling down and flooding the piano keys, and my fingers kept slipping again and again.

If there's somebody to sing this song ….. I think it should be Toshi….. but …… I don't know….. I don't know….. I don't fucking know….. It's too painful to……

I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything like that….. but so many people have been asking me about this, so I had to say something…… just let me….. have…… a little more time……

I love you all.



Yoshiki / Monday, December 25, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:14:28 AM »
Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Xmas
Current mood: thankful

Hi everyone,

I just got back from Miami....Well it's been a really busy month..... I went to Tokyo first and had some meetings and did a TV show.
I came back here to LA and did another TV show, then went to Miami.......
It was really nice out there, but I didn't go to the beach or anything…..... I went to the hospital, not that I'm sick, but I've been doing some research about the relationship between music and the human brain.
For example: when I was in Miami I played the piano in front of mental patients…. to see if the music could help their mental states…. well I'll be doing this research for a while collaborating with hospitals and universities. I'll let you know more in the future.

Anyway, it's almost the end of the year.

This year............ one of the biggest pieces of news for me is that I found out I have fans outside of Japan…. I visited some countries before, and met some fans at the airport, but I didn't know I have fans in that many countries…. I really don't know what to say…. how lucky I am....

Also early this year ........ my Japanese management office sent me almost 10,000 pages of paper…. I was like "What are those?"…. usually I get a lot of contracts, because I'm under contract with several different record companies, but those were not contracts for me to sign…. those were petitions from Taiwan, and all the letters said "Yoshiki please come to Taiwan"…... Wow ........ then on My space…. I just uploaded some songs for my friend in New York who works in the music industry, to get his opinion of my compositions…. then for some reason it spread, and still is. It's been very strange in a good way.

Then I started writing a blog, which I'm not good at…. but some people responded to it with such sweet messages…. even though I get hate mail sometimes, asking why I'm not responding to their mail….......... well….......... very cute! …...... and I still love you!!
It sounds like a one way street, but it's not…. I may not be able to respond with mail, but your feelings are always affecting my musical compositions…. eventually I will respond to all of you with my music.

I might have said before, when you're recording every day for a long time and pretty much shutting out everything from the outside world…. you start losing your sense of reality, and your mind starts drifting to the depth of the strange ocean of thoughts.
You start thinking of the meaning of life.... or start losing the meaning of who you are, even the meaning of your existence…. Well I secluded myself intentionally from the outside…. but I was on the edge….

Again, thank you very much for being there….

No matter what, I'll come back as an artist and start performing next year!!!

Yes, today is Christmas…. I'm alone at my studio…. But I'm OK, I wanted to keep recording…. So next year I can deliver the Violet UK album, and many more…. Then I can start touring the world…. I can't wait to meet you in person!!!!

It's cold in LA…. God! It was so cold in Japan…. Please take care and don't catch a cold.

And, I wish you a merry Christmas and happy holidays!




Of course I have to mention the dish I ate in Miami… what was the name?.... I think it's called STONE CRAB.... "Not Stoned Crab"... they only take one claw and let them go back to the ocean....... anyway that was so yummy, I couldn't resist.... but I didn't eat strawberry cake at the restaurant, even though I wanted to...........see!... I listened to you a little! (I was fine with the crab, maybe I'm not allergic to them anymore. Hopefully strawberries too!) bye bye!


Yoshiki / Sunday, October 22, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:13:47 AM »
Sunday, October 22, 2006

I forgot to say.....
Current mood: creative

I forgot to let you know about the information involving the problem.
Just in case you get hacked like me, this link may be helpful:

Please go to Tom's blog. Here

(I didn't find this information myself, my sweet fans found it for me)




Tonight we ended up going to a different restaurant that was not Chinese…..... (Sad face)…...... but it was also good.
We then went for drinks at a bar............ and out of nowhere a lady put an X Japans CD right in front of my face to have me autograph it for her.
That was really funny….especially being with who I was with……
I have a lot of interesting stories with these kinds of situations that I may tell you about in the future.
Guess what…… I'm back in the studio working all night again…… ROCK N ROLL!

Don't worry, I'll sleep sometime…………my love!!!!


Yoshiki / Saturday, October 21, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:13:05 AM »
Saturday, October 21, 2006

Current mood: weird

Wow……. I got hacked.

A lot of people sent me messages about a bulletin that I never knew about. People also asked "Was it really you?"

I guess you know me very well. I rarely post something like that.

Also some people are very worried that I would get pissed off and shut down my page on MySpace……

Anyways, the problem has been fixed, and not to worry…. I don't hate my space yet……

Maybe the hacker is right: I should pimp up my page. ha ha ha ha…..! (Hopefully that hacker's stunt didn't cause any problems for anyone.)

As always I'm so lucky to have sweet people like you to support me……and a million moms. Thank you!!

By the way I'm going to work all night tonight, ha ha ha ha (with Dr. Evil's pinky finger) and then maybe sleep a little tomorrow. Hopefully I can upload a new song or some new progress on the Violet UK page soon.

Love You!!!



Guess what... Tomorrow the former X Japan's manager is flying in from Tokyo, we're going to dinner in Beverly Hills at the CHINESE RESTAURANT!!!!!!!!!

Yum yum!


Yoshiki / Monday, September 18, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:12:18 AM »
Monday, September 18, 2006

Current mood: grateful

Hi everyone
I can't believe its September. Time flies…… it fucking flies.
Well, first of all, I want to thank the people who came to see me at Otakon.
It was so nice to see you all there. I also want to thank the staff who took care of me out there.
Since X-Japan's last live show, except on a few occasions, I've pretty much been stuck in the studio in L.A.
I don't know what it is, but you guys make me wanna perform.

I'm not talking just about the people at Otakon; I'm talking about all of my friends and fans. You guys make me wanna be on stage……. make me wanna stay in this world….. You'll see how dark my lyrics are when we release Violet UK's first album.
Since X-Japan's last album, I haven't really put my feelings out there lyrically.
Some of the lyrics of VUK's songs could be the darkest I've ever written……… anyway, when I was in Baltimore, I ate a lot of crab cakes. I'm allergic to shellfish sometimes, but….. so what…… they tasted so good.
For two days I ate crab cakes for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Crab cakes and so many sweet fans make me wanna go back again……. At the same time I felt so bad that we had such a limited time to do the autograph session.
I'm very sorry….really sorry…..for the people who waited in line for such a long time, but still couldn't get one.
I wanna go to these kind of conventions again, maybe Europe next time.
Well….. I guess I should first finish VUK's album, which I've been recording for too long. I'm trying everything….. absolutely everything to complete the album,……. I just can't say "when"…… yet.
It's really hard……really, really hard to compromise if you have a perfect vision when you write the score. It's hard to match the real world with what's in my head.

When I compose I just write the score on a piece of paper, rarely do I use a musical instrument.
At that time I can hear everything in my head. It's almost completed……. Then I'll go to the studio and put the real sounds such as drums, guitar, strings, etc….. to disk.
The real world sucks,… imagination is better,…. at least to me,…. when it comes to my music.
But sometimes I get chills during the recording sessions. A few weeks ago, we did some tracking with a singer Katie on a song called "Asphyxia" that was amazing…… the song.... the voice…… everything was perfect. I don't know what it was, but the song really hit me.
I'm blessed to have a singer like her, as well as the other singers for VUK.
Maybe my life isn't as bad as I thought.….. I guess I should stop typing now and get back to work in the studio.
Thank you all for being so supportive. I love you!!!


Guess what I'm eating?
……………strawberries!!...... which I'm also allergic to (pretty often).
Oh… regarding "Blue Butterfly", the song I just recorded for a Hollywood movie that will be released next year.
They asked me not to reveal the name yet…… sorry……..
(But Pink is in it.)


Yoshiki / Saturday, August 05, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:11:39 AM »
Saturday, August 05, 2006

Current mood: sleepy

Hi everyone!

I'm at LAX right now. I have already missed two fucking flights -- but I'm glad I made it. I haven't checked myspace for a long time, because I've been working on an soundtrack for some hollywood movie. The deadline was shortened, so, for the last two weeks I've been working eighteen to twenty hours a day, writing and recording a new song. The song is pretty cool, I may actually put it on the VUK album.... I just finished mixing three hours ago then came to the airport directly from the studio. Well actually, I couldn't really finish the final version, so it's still a rough mix. I guess the song is cool...well...I don't.know.. I can't really think right now.......... The song is called Blue Butterfly. It's about human's basic nature. Anyway, I don't exactly know what I'm doing right now at the airport. I guess I'm waiting for the next flight to Washington D.C. for OTAKON and drinking a Bloody Mary... I'm so spaced out, and especially the last few days I haven't really slept. I hope I'm going to look okay when I get to see my fans.... Well.... maybe I should get drunk on the airplane... because I haven't even had a sip of wine for entire month.... You know what, maybe I should read the messages you guys sent me while I'm in there... Also, maybe I can finally start adding all of my friend requests. I'm really sorry for the delay.... I love you... but I guess I'm really fucked up.....well... ROCK N ROLL!!!

I'll see you guys soon... not only the people in Baltimore, but everyone who has sent me love from all around the world....LOVE YOU!!!



Yoshiki / Monday, June 26, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:11:02 AM »
Monday, June 26, 2006

Current mood: loved

Yes, I'm going to Otakon in Baltimore...................I think on August 5th & 6th, to do some signings and some kind of Q&A. I may also be the judge of a JRock fashion show.

Last month I was having dinner with a friend from Sony (USA). She said "I don't think you would do it, but, Otakon wants to invite you as a special guest."....then I said......"Cool!".....Well that's it!!!!

I'm an Anime fan anyway........I'm also working on some movie projects, one of them is "The Rose of Versailles" (I hope this english title is correct), as music director.

Well, I'm very excited to meet the US fans, thank you so much for the opportunity.... although some people have sent email to yoshiki.net to express their feelings that they are very upset because they cannot attend the event....but please don't be upset!!! As soon as VUK's recording is done, I'm planning on travelling the world to perform or make some appearances, so I could meet you in or near your home town (hopefully)... So please DO NOT risk anything to be there just for me.....and again, since I started being active on "my space", I've recieved a lot of messages here and on the "Violet UK" page, as well as "YOSHIKI.NET" & "YOSHIKI MOBILE". I really really wish I could respond to all of your messages. Some of them were so sweet !!!

I feel really bad about not being able to respond, but all I can do...all I should do... is create the music that will allow me to respond to all of you...the best I can do....the only thing I can do.........




....I want to go to China, to see Pandas and Tigers.....

....I want to go to Egypt, ride on Camels.

....to Africa, to see Elephants.....

....I love Chinese food, French wine, Italy for tiramisu.......yum yum!!!.....

....to Germany and drive fucking 200 miles an hour......


....OF COURSE I WANT TO MEET YOU FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Yoshiki / Sunday, June 18, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:10:22 AM »
Sunday, June 18, 2006

I'm back!
Current mood: lonely

Hi everyone. I'm back in LA, trying to get back to my everyday recording habit.

Some people have asked me about my TV interview last week in Japan......and yes I was a little out of it. People thought I was depressed or mad........but I was just thinking of the desert for my dinner, and the next day's drink.... I ended up bringing a French red wine to Hides' grave site, and had a drink with him. (well, really, I was kind of alone.................)

Well: I'm gonna keep on rockin. (I mean recording)



PS This week I'm planning to play drums a lot! (just so I can get back in shape).....'cause I ate too much pudding in Japan.


Yoshiki / Tuesday, May 16, 2006 (2 blog posts that day)
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:09:06 AM »
Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Current mood: loved

I feel like I've got a million moms....that's cool !!!

I'm gonna have a day off tomorrow...the first one this year!!!



Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Current mood: anxious

We haven't released the CD, we haven't held a concert for VUK, or even finished the recording.........yet.

Because of you spreading the word all over........I am getting a lot of offers; such as magazine interviews, TV appearances, concert performances... from all over the world.

I'm a little overwhelmed...... I mean, I'm a fuckin lucky person to have fans like you.... You Rock!!!!




I'm gonna be in Tokyo for the next week. I'll be doing interviews with Y-mobile, Y-net, etc..... and I'm gonna eat Japanese pudding...... yummy yummy!!!



Yoshiki / VUK: Sunday, May 14, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:06:53 AM »
VUK:  Sunday, May 14, 2006

Yesterday, after the long hours of VUK recording, I went home and tried to sleep, but I could't. So I started playing the piano......Bach, Chopin, X Japan, VUK or whatever came to my fingers. I ended up playing more than 8 fucking hours. Now I'm back in the studio recording again. I'm not tired, but my wrists hurt. Not from the piano, but more from computer programming of the songs.

It even pains me to type this blog, but I just wanted to say thank you for supporting Violet UK!!!

The doctors have told me to take it easy, but I don't care anymore, I'm gonna keep on rockin 'till I finish the album. Then I can perform in concert....... in front of you, instead of alone in my living room.



Yoshiki / Tuesday, May 02, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:05:58 AM »
Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Hide will be loved forever
Current mood: touched

What did I do to deserve so many beautiful comments from all of you?

I wish I could share this with Hide. He will be loved forever.




Yoshiki / Thursday, April 20, 2006
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:04:52 AM »
Thursday, April 20, 2006

Current mood: grateful

I can't believe how many letters I have been getting from so many different countries! As I said on my own Myspace page*, I wish I could respond to all of your messages. I am working day and night to finish this album. Maybe after a few shows in the US, I may want to do a world tour.

Thank you so much for supporting me and being who you are!!!




*Returner's note: For those of you who don't remember or were not around to use Myspace when it came out, Myspace had it's own page but separate platforms for regular posts/simple updates and longer, in depth blog-like posts. The simple updates would be uploaded like a tweet, but a section to fill out a blog existed as well. When Yoshiki says, "As I said on my own Myspace page..." he means in an instant post like a tweet. He was going into detail regarding that post on the blog portion of his Myspace.*

Yoshiki / Yoshiki's Myspace Blog- Archive
« on: April 28, 2020, 05:02:40 AM »
Hi all, long time no see.

There are very few places on the internet that still have Yoshiki's myspace blogs archived (only 1 with a mass amount of them that I know of). For the sake of hoping this place lasts the longest, I'll be posting whatever existing posts remain under this thread. If you can find others, feel free to post them with the link to the website you found them on.


Albums/Singles / Re: 30th anniversary BLUE BLOOD
« on: April 30, 2019, 09:14:34 PM »
Ok let me get this straight.. you guys are mad that the same material keeps getting played at concerts... but you're also criticizing the band (and in one instance a single member specifically- of course) for not pursuing a concert dedicated to a 30 year old album? What a lame, dated idea zzzzzzzzz

General chat / Re: X JAPAN Lyrics Translation
« on: February 03, 2019, 05:33:35 PM »
I did not realize! Thank you so much for this!!  :D

General chat / Re: RIP X JAPAN
« on: January 22, 2019, 03:58:32 PM »

And you can criticize the ones you love all you want. I do know a lot of relationships that end/marriages that result in divorce from a partner's desire to pick at their spouse's wrongdoings/inability to move on from past grievances, though  ;D
Hi sorry but... why that weird comment at my husband? I can gladly affirm you that this is not something we will split up on.  ;D We both take the freedom of telling each other our honest opinion. That's what makes a relationship healthy.

Why do you have to take this to a personal level again? He was just giving an example of people you actually love, but are still allowed to be critical of. It's not a crime to point out mistakes.  :-\

Lol irl, I didn't even know NB was a male much less your husband so honestly, I don't know why you believed I was making a personalized comment about you so no, I was not taking anything to a personal level at all. I'm sorry that you believed that to be the case however, and if it hurt you. All these years I thought "he" was a "she." I don't know anything about the users on here's personal lives. I was actually being tongue in cheek about partnerships, as in X Japan and their fans are a partnership. Relationships often end when a compromise can't be reached or past wounds can't be healed the same that fans will turn bitter and eventually leave fandoms for the same reason. The reason I compared X and their fans to a relationship at all is because NB mentioned how we criticize our love ones, so it built a comparison in my mind as well.

Edit: My comparison will make more sense if you re-read the post it came from. It was said after asking how long the same grievances towards Yoshiki's decisions/X Japan's direction will be discussed for everyone to endure over and over. 2 years, 5 years, 10 years, etc. That's why I said, relationships will often fail if one partner cannot move on or let go.

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